I know it has been a while since I have written.  I don't know if you knew that I had been in Punxsutawney with Dad for about 6 weeks until he went to the light. I was planning on going to see him for Thanksgiving and already had my tickets to see him from Sun November the 22 and returning on Sunday the November the 29th........

 

I got a call that Dad was in critical condition and he being transported by ambulance to the hospital on November the 6th a Friday. I called my brother Mike and we drove up the next day not knowing if we were going to see Dad alive or not. He had fallen in the bathtub on Nov 2end is what we speculated because was his last activity in his check book and papers which was his daily routine. His Landlord found him November the 5th, 3 days later.

 

His body had already gone into shock, his kidneys had shut down and he had been laying in his own feces for 3 days, so the skin had already started to decay on his backside. Mike and I stayed there for 10 days. Rode back home to get things done because Dad was improving. Three days later we got a call that things had changed. I flew back up on November 18th a Wednesday and Mike and Bill came in On Friday November 20th.

 

Dad, went to the light on November the 27th at 11.45pm. I flew back home on the 26 which was Thanksgiving day. And Mike drove home. Bill stayed with Dad. He said he went out and a CD with the big band music that Dad always liked and the Nurses brought in a CD player. Bill sat with Dad until the wee hours of those last 2 days. God Bless Him.......He held Dad's hands until Dad stopped breathing.......

 

It has been a year of lessons........I did not see this one coming. Burying 2 parents within a years time..........I guess I have been in the survival mode for the past 3 years.........I apologize if I have not taken the time to respond to your emails..........

 

 I feel at Peace for some reason.........It is almost like graduating from a class. (Of life lessons or a life lesson.) I don't really know how  explain it, yet I can relate it to go to Nursing School..........I wanted to be a Nurse, yet I hated getting up in the morning for clinicals like the plague.......(Imagine that) Yet, I made it. I hated Nursing classes because I was as green as they came and it was a struggle for me.

 

At that time I did not not how to use a computer, copy and paste etc etc. We had to read 10 chapters and then have a test on it the following class. (Mon_Wed, thing) Yet, I made it.

 

Right now I feel like I have made it thru a class that I had no idea about..........and if I knew how hard it was going to be, then I would never had started it........Yet, I didn't know. I just kept putting one foot in front of the other........and now I feel I have graduated from that part of my life lesson and I can now use my experience to help others or at least to understand what they are going thru.

 

I feel it is so it is so unfair to judge people when we have never been where they have been. And we all do it, subconsciously or not. I know I am guilty of it to......Having been thru some bad experiences I some times place everyone in that category........I guess that is just human nature and none of us will ever be perfect.

 

However as I am writing this book...........it allows me to put on paper what is in my head........I really appreciate your friendship and not giving up on me when I am going thru stuff......

 

Talk soon!

Cissy